A lot more than yesterday.
Filled with doubt.
So much doubt.
That's why I keep myself distracted (or at least try to).
I want to make so many dumb decisions right now, but I have to keep telling myself not to.
*sigh*
What if they're not dumb?
What if they are?
I think not being able to tell is why I gave up. It's like that episode when Kirk let that one crewman die. Sure maybe he could have saved him, but at what cost to the rest of the crew? (Just ignore the rest of the episode when it turns out that the dead crewman is still alive and batshit fucking insane).
The question I just can't answer is this: did I signal a red alert or a yellow one?
