Tuesday, May 28, 2013

This is scary

Fun fact: I posted this video back in Jan. 2010.

Relationship issues. Not sure if I have made the right decision or not. At first I was confident with my decision and now I am not. How can you make a decision when the stakes are so high? Why does one half of my heart want one thing and the other half want the opposite?  I keep looking over at my desktop and seeing the image that I created a while ago to try and illustrate how reflections are seamless. I keep looking at its icon and thinking, "my, that's appropriate."
Very ironic that this only showed up on my desktop after a system-wide outage that was scheduled for this past weekend.  Anyway, when I found the post with the aforementioned video/song, I decided to do a little more digging.  And this is what I found (WARNING: personal content that does not often get discussed on this blog):

Jan. 2007: relationship with boy #1 starts
Feb. 2009: relationship with boy #1 ends
~2 yrs.

May 2009: relationship with boy #1 starts again
April 2010: relationship with boy #1 ends again
~1 yr.

Dec. 2010: relationship with boy #2 "starts"
Feb. 2011: relationship with boy #2 starts
May 2013: relationship with boy #2 ends
~2.5 yrs.

That's all, I guess.  Things... pretty much suck right now.